Long time, yet again.

As per my usual of late, I haven’t blogged in what feels like a million years. Though, anyone reading this I’m sure doesn’t care, if you’re here randomly. Only a few people actually read my blog, that I know for a fact do care. And all of you I speak to either on Plurk, messenger, phone, texts, etc etc. Since I changed the link to my blog a while back, most of my readers think I’ve up and disappeared.

In a way, this is good. Since, there were a few things I didn’t want to be read any more by them. Most of them I knew on a bit more of a personal level, more than just an online acquaintance that is. And hard feelings had come between us, I no longer really felt safe knowing they were reading my thoughts, feelings, and goings on in my every day life.

Nothing special about this post. I just felt that since Kash kind of posted not to long ago, I better at least say hey to this here trusty blog of mine. Which has been at times my only outlet, and sanity keeper. Now though, I have much more than that to keep me happy. I will though never forget how much I needed this here thing.

What have I been doing? Much of nothing. Since no where around is hiring, things are getting really stressful where we are staying and living. Being threatened to pay up or pack up. My health, and now worries of Kash’s health declining. Need to some how get him to see a Dr. for these issues. Can’t imagine how much pain he must be in daily.

I wish there was something more I could do, but alas I can not. Barely can do for myself, and most days I can’t even do that. I’m just thankful though that my asthma is at least some what more controlled than before. Since, well lets face it. Before…I was near death. We currently are running low on food, but not for lack of being able to buy groceries. No, now it’s because we supposedly don’t have any vehicles to go to the store with.

Yet… he goes to the store two three times a day, in said vehicles. Out of milk, lots of cereal in the house. And oh, just remembered. We saw a MOUSE run across the floor in the living room last night. It was a fawn colored field mouse. Smaller than Tieri, but just barely. It was either an adult female, or young male. Have to make sure it doesn’t get in to our room where our mice and rats are!

Don’t want them getting any diseases, or worse, pregnant! Nailah has been wonderful lately. She has he moments of meanness but don’t we all? She’s been real sweet, and she enjoys her daily cuddle times. She and Nikhi both have learned some tricks they will do for treats. Such as they sit up, lay down, kisses (which for them it is a nuzzle against your hand, starting at their mouth and they rub against you til your hand goes behind their head to pet them a moment).

Nikhi can jump, but only if he is in a certain mood. Since he’s really lazy. And that requires sometimes too much movement for him! Lol. We often refer to him as our Sloth Kitty. He moves sssoooooossslllllooooowwww it’s not even funny. It’s quite annoying at times, tbh.

Aside from all that, Kash and I have been playing Wizard101 still, lots of improvements in the game there. If you’re interested, you can find the blog we run dedicated to it over there in the blog roll. We update that a lot more often than this. But that’s because it doesn’t have anything personal about us there. Nothing. Wizard101 is a kid friendly game, so that means everything must be rated G. No personal talk. Aside from Wizard101 we were, not so much now, playing Dungeons and Dragons Online, and playing the Sims Stories games. All were missing from that collection is Castaways. But maybe some day we’ll be able to get that one too.

Having a lot of fun there tbh. Maybe we’ll create and dedicate a blog to the sims. Hmm. Something to be thought about and discussed! Take care everyone who reads this!

-Khai

Life....

So, I know I haven't blogged in a really long while. Well, many reasons for that. The main reason is, is that I've been so upset over some of the things that has gone on, I've really just not even felt like writing about it. That in and of itself, should express just how upsetting to me the events have been. My grandmothers passing, of which I've written about, but only hardly. The fact that I really really miss her, and I hate that she is gone. That the entire rest of our family is literally falling apart, now that she is gone. And it seems every ones true colors are starting to show, now that they aren't have to pretend to be someone they obviously aren't, because she was around. 

Like my uncle. Always knew he was a git. But man has he shown just how much of a git he has been since my grand mothers passing. Were talking day after, he was a "new man" to all that thought they knew him, and loved him. Greedy bastard. Telling my grandmother up until the day he died that he didn't, and wouldn't be taking any of the money she had set up for my mother to live off of until she could get on her own two feet after her passing. The day after my grandmother passed, he demanded half of it, saying he had right to it, as her second child, and only son. Fucker.

Like my mother, who can sit there and tell me she loves me, and yet I feel no emotion behind those words she speaks. Allowing her drug addict boyfriend to steal my dog, and then what does she do? She runs off with him! Fuck her, and fuck him, I hope they rot in hell. She came to visit, my mother did. Was so excited. Then she brought her druggie boyfriend with her, and immediately I knew that nothing was going to go well. Only good that came of is, was that finally, we managed to convince a Dr to treat me FOR MY LUNGS! By then I couldn't breathe, had used up all my asthma medicine, and I was near death. And all the Drs at the hospital, and even an actual dr that we paid 400 dollars to go see, said they couldn't/wouldn't help me because my heart rate was elevated.

NO FUCKING SHIT MY HEART RATE IS/WAS ELEVATED, I CANT BREATHE! But no one would listen. So finally, we went some where new, that no one knew me....and forgot to mention all my other run ins with Drs thus far. She listened to my lungs, said I had a slight fever, and prescribed me some heavy duty lung specific antibiotics to clear up what seemed to be a pretty bad lung infection, along with some prednisone and pseudophedrine. Voila. I was much better! I still have some issues I really doubt they will ever go away. Could be due to having had a severe lung infection for 10 months, or could be due to my asthma just having progressed, or could be due to my allergies, living in this damn mold infested house.

OR, could be any combination of the aforementioned possibilities. So, hate living here. Love Kash, love my pets. Nailah's believe it or not, gotten  much better than before. Not perfect, but better. We have a new rat..her name is Sakura. So now it's the four. Shemeit is still alive and kicking. Tieri (Nefritieri) is a bitch as usual. We don't take her out much. Like, ever. Only to clean her cage. Because she just loves to bite. Dhani almost died, but thankfull we lucked in to getting a new tank for him. Lucient, well...he's getting bigger. Pa went up to NY and brought the bitch/whore down there. Along with her baby. So now they are eating our food, and no one seems to think there is anything wrong with that.

T, the bitch neighbor, now never invites us to dinner any more. Only Pa and Whore/baby. It's like we don't even exist any more. WTF. I really hate people. And if it wasn't for Kash, and my family of pets, I would really hate life too. 

So, that is my most recent blog. Wonderful isn't it? But then again, isn't life wonderful?