Just don't want to?

Ever get the feeling where all of the sudden you realize, that everything you thought was important, just...isn't? Screw the fucking facebook apps. Screw the games and whether or not I'm in the lead. Screw it. Every day, all day, I sit here at the damn computer. Every day, I am missing out on everything that really IS important. Like the ones I love, the ones that count on me. The ones that love me, just as much as I do them. Why?

Well, no more. I don't want to go on ignoring them. Letting life pass me by, because I'm 26 now, I've got nothing to show for it. No education, no job, just a mess. Yes, I have love, yes, I have family, but what good am I to them really? I'm not. Am I? Not in one of the most important parts of my responsibility to them.

I've lost myself, in these games. I've forgotten who and what I am. I've forgotten how to express myself, forgotten how to convey my message. No more. I don't want it. I want me. I want me back, for them. For myself. For all that is good, and all that is kind. I want my life back. I'm taking it back. Starting, now.

-Khai