It, sucks.

Yes, not having my power cord, to my other laptop, is really bothering me lately. All my photos, from childhood, and up, all my music, all my SIMS games, are on that laptop. I can't access it. It's been OVER a year, since the cord finally gave out. Why? Because Ann left it out when SHE didn't have a laptop, where Kris and Jake's damned kitten ate through the cord.

:(

My computer. I want it back. Depressing. Got to Dragonspyre beginning, don't really feel like playing anymore. 12 hours, less than, I wont be able to, so why bother? I think I'd rather have my power cord anyway before I play Wizard again. But, that's not likely. All I know, is if I don't get the power cord soon, they might not have them anymore. Then what?

I'll never be able to access my stuff, ever again. And that was a brand new cord on my laptop, before he ate it. I had just replaced it.

Gah. Too sad.

-Khai

New beginnings? Sad endings.

So, starting with the sad endings, I'm sad to say, we wont have our subscription much longer. But, I am just very thankful to Nina, for allowing us to have it thus far. It's been real fun playing. I'm going to miss it, but we'll get it back as soon as we can. In the mean time, what are we going to do?

Well, hopefully, I'll be getting a job. And soon. Going to Ingles the other day, seeing Taco Bell there, something told me to go inside and get an application. I did, came home, filled it out, then asked Pa if he could take us back, the next day, to turn it in. That, was yesterday.

With in just a few hours, I had a call from the manager there, asking me to come in for an interview. It's set for this Friday, so wish me luck. If even at the slightest, I get few hours a week, that is still money coming in, of which we so desperately need.

And if I get some money coming in, I plan on sending some of it to Nins, to again renew our subscriptions to Wizard. And then, I'll be taking my sexy man of mine, to the movies. He's been dieing to see HP6, so I want to take him. I don't want to see it, but at the same time, I do.

I'm hoping Kash can get a job too, but if not, I'm okay working solo for a while. I am, however, NOT okay with paying bills etc, when that fucktard is up there, running the bills up like crazy. I hate him. I want him gone. [start rant]PA NEEDS TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT HIM!!![end rant]

-Khai

Just can't help it;

A huge part of me, misses my friendship with him. Aside from Nina, no one else has been, and will always be a huge part of my life, regardless they are physically in my life or not. Maybe you don't, or can't understand that. I don't know. But it really bothers me, when I want to, but you basically forbid me to. I don't want to get into it either, because I'll just get more upset. Basically, I miss having a friend, a guy friend, more less, a gay, guy friend, that I could talk to about anything and everything, and he wasn't someone that I was romantically involved with.

Nina, you're great, and I really do love you. But there is a lot of things I can't talk to you about, not just because you are a girl, but because of your strict beliefs in certain things, despite you've never enforced them unto me, of which, I love you more for. It's not often you find someone like you, that is accepting of others, for who ever and whatever they might be. But Kash, I guess it's like Stephy for you, Josh is, to me. Just like he misses me, I miss him. Yeah, he pissed me off, royally, but he's young. Much like Nina is. He's like three years younger than me.

But whatever, I'm done with this, and I'm going to play the game now, to try and take my mind off of things.

Done.

Okay, so I'm a few hours ahead of schedule, but what difference is it going to make. Seriously? None. Only one person who asked to be allowed, that stated to me their email address, I have not added. Why? Well, because I'm not so sure I can trust said person enough to NOT go blabbing to another certain someone what I write. Since, that other certain someone is one of the big reasons why I finally made the decision to go private.

I don't think many people realize, but I have a tracker on my blog, and it is literally telling me who is coming to my page, when and how. In other words, if you came to my blog, using blogger's dashboard, it tells me. If you came to my blog using RSS feeds, it tells me. If you came to my blog, using a link, from some where else, anywhere, it tells me. It also tells me who you are, and where you are from, and what time, you came to my blog.

I was real tired of seeing this person coming to my blog, EVERY time I blogged. I'm not okay with that. I made the decision months ago, to end my friendship with them, and for a reason. I do NOT want them to see what I am up to, how I am doing, and where I am going, with my life. Along with a couple other people that are visiting my blog still, that I'm not okay with. Not to mention the random drop ins. I used to not mind it so much, but lately, I'm wanting my life to remain private.

As is my prerogative.

-Khai

P.S. I also didn't add someone else, due to the fact they never gave me their email address. Oh well, they know how to contact me if they want to.

Alright, so here's the deal..

In 48 hours, I will be switching to being an invite only blog readers settings. Why? Well, I'm tired of random people being able to just waltz on over here, so to speak, and read every thing about my life. Why have a blog then? You might ask. Well, simple. For ME, key word here, ME to blog. To journal my thoughts, my feelings, my everything with myself, and only, ONLY those I care about.

I'm tired of just opening my life up to anyone who might wander on through. Too many easy ways to get hurt. My life is mine, and mine alone, to share with who, and ONLY who I wish. This is a free world, giving myself the RIGHT to pick and chose who to share it with. I don't peep in peoples windows while walking down the street, to get some where. Just like I don't randomly go to peoples blogs I don't know, with out having some sort of invite first.

So, I'm taking my blog off of the public radar. If YOU want to continue to read, you are going to have to send a comment, or message me via email, or IM, or whatever you feel like, and let me know. Send me your blogger email address, so I can just add you to my list of readers. I had made my page all pretty and spiffified, but now I realize, it was all in vain. Oh well. Shit happens. Life goes on.

You have 48 hours to react, or it's sianara. For good.

-Khai

Wizard101, and Life in General

I guess I am like one of the few bloggers out there, not solely blogging about Wizard? Or maybe I've just found a place I'd rather type up about that, than here. Shameless Plug to mine and Kash's site for our wizards, along with soon to be stories, etc. Just need to stop actually PLAYING the game long enough to type it all up. We have it all in our heads, just not out on paper, or in this case, screen.

GRANT was gone for a few days, then he came back, then shit went bad again. The entire time he was gone, we didn't once smell cig smoke, didn't have massive headaches, etc. Now he's back, and we're getting sick, once again, throat itching, and sore, lungs congested, nose congested, and head aches galore! I really hope Pa kicks his ass out when he comes back. Which is hopefully sooner than later.

The jerk had the audacity to try and start a fight with Kash. Bitch, let him try, I dare him to hit either one of us, he'd be going to jail so fucking fast. Think he'd be allowed to come back here after wards? Ha! He'd wish. Okay, I'm done for now. Peace all.

-Khai