Yeah, I agree. Despite, many things have been going on, I still haven't and don't feel like going through the details. Long story short, I'm doing alright. Grant pushed me over the edge, an any forth coming instance on his part, and I'm gonna go off. Wont be pretty either. But, let's just HOPE he does, and he lays a finger on me, because the moment he does, that phone will be picked up, the police called, and his ass hauled off.
Then, it'd be restraining order time, and his ass wont be allowed back. Ever. Or at least as long as I have a say, which will be as long as I have a conscience. Ann, has been officially removed from my life, for now for always. I refuse to do this anymore. After she took it upon herself to elect myself and Kash, as the culprits behind the HO hacking, and then went even farther and said that we had broken up, and had a big fight.
Which, according to her, was the reason for my hacking of HO. Um, can we say no? No. That, in itself, sums it up.
Right now, I am dealing with a heavy head ache. It is killer, atm, and I think I'm gonna need to take some medicine. Kash and I have been battling the flu, thanks to the dick and cunt living under these same roofs. We took our AC out, because let's face it, it's just not hot enough to keep it in there and run it, when at night, on average, it's 65 degrees out. Just leave the window open with a fan (sometimes, usually winds up off with in an hour) and the temperature is perfect.
Is it any wonder the fucks are still sick? Still not getting much to eat, but foods food right? If we have to eat bread for dinner, then we have to do just that. I just cant wait, and neither can Pa, because in his words 'hopefully sooner than later' they'll be gone.
Me and Kash? Stronger than ever. Our one year anniversary is very soon. Today is Lestat's unofficial/official birthday. Happy Birthday Les. Enjoy your day. It wouldn't be your day, with out a head ache, huh? Lol. Okay, I'll shut up now on that.
Thankful, for Kash, Rhett, Ase and Li for being in my life. You make life worth living, and bearable on days I don't even want to get out of bed. Nina, you are the best friend and sister anyone could ever ask for. I feel sorry for Brett and Chelsie for not realizing. Maybe one day they'll come around? (Hopefully that is their names, lol.)
Anyway, peace out.
Kai.
Showing posts with label Ann. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Ann. Show all posts
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Perfect Timing
Opposite the immediate reaction one might have upon reading the title of this blog, is the feeling in which I am writing this blog. Anne has said she was going to send a 'package' in the mail, and that it 'should' be here by Yesterday, though she told Kash this last week. Very convenient, and opportune, perfect timing, come Monday night, Ann just signs off of mobile, and has NOT been back on.
Usually when she gets off like that she sends out a mass, saying she would be back when she could put minutes on her phone. I know for a fact that this is not the case. She had just refilled her minutes, and had no reason to just up and get off like that. Knowing her though, the way I do, she'll be back online with in the week, and she'll have some bogus excuse for her absence. But really, she didn't send the package (at all, or at the time she said she did).
Now, I don't ask her anymore for things, she just offers to send it, but seriously. Why does she have to fucking lie about this shit? It would be easier, and better if she just kept her fucking mouth shut, and quit offering to send me stuff. I'm not sure how much more I can take, and how much longer I'm going to be able to keep this rouse up. I love her, but no. I'm tired of the shit, and that's all this is.
-Khai
Usually when she gets off like that she sends out a mass, saying she would be back when she could put minutes on her phone. I know for a fact that this is not the case. She had just refilled her minutes, and had no reason to just up and get off like that. Knowing her though, the way I do, she'll be back online with in the week, and she'll have some bogus excuse for her absence. But really, she didn't send the package (at all, or at the time she said she did).
Now, I don't ask her anymore for things, she just offers to send it, but seriously. Why does she have to fucking lie about this shit? It would be easier, and better if she just kept her fucking mouth shut, and quit offering to send me stuff. I'm not sure how much more I can take, and how much longer I'm going to be able to keep this rouse up. I love her, but no. I'm tired of the shit, and that's all this is.
-Khai
Friday, April 3, 2009
The. Wife.
So, now she's practically begging me to send her the laptop. Fuck, no. I am so tired of her shit. I am two seconds from just telling her to fuck off.
I promised her, if she didn't fucking quit lying, I don't care if it's a lie about not having to go pee, when she does, a lie is a lie, her and I would be through.
How many lies, has she told, since then? I can't even begin to count, it's been that many. And not just little ones either. Back and forth. I am fucking sick of it.
I am tired of her whining. I am tired of her complaining. She made her fucking bed, now she has to lay in it.
Left me to fend for myself, and some how make it on 70 dollars a week, with a 650 a month rent, plus utilities, food, not just for myself, oh no. Her fucking pets too.
Said she was leaving, to go make money working for her mother in MI. Where the fuck is the money? I know she has some, but me? Nope.
We all know what happened to me. And yet, she wants me to send the laptop? Fuck that shit, mine would still be working if when she didn't have one, she wasn't HOGGING mine, and then leaving it out, so the room mates fucking cat could chew through the cord.
Hell no she isn't getting her laptop back. Fuck that shit. All the stuff I lost, because of her?! All that stuff in the storage, of which, only happened to not get paid, because of.......her lies. Yes, her lies.
It's okay.. I'm okay.. I'm here. Fuck this shit. Fuck the bitch.
Wow, Lestat much?
-Khai
I promised her, if she didn't fucking quit lying, I don't care if it's a lie about not having to go pee, when she does, a lie is a lie, her and I would be through.
How many lies, has she told, since then? I can't even begin to count, it's been that many. And not just little ones either. Back and forth. I am fucking sick of it.
I am tired of her whining. I am tired of her complaining. She made her fucking bed, now she has to lay in it.
Left me to fend for myself, and some how make it on 70 dollars a week, with a 650 a month rent, plus utilities, food, not just for myself, oh no. Her fucking pets too.
Said she was leaving, to go make money working for her mother in MI. Where the fuck is the money? I know she has some, but me? Nope.
We all know what happened to me. And yet, she wants me to send the laptop? Fuck that shit, mine would still be working if when she didn't have one, she wasn't HOGGING mine, and then leaving it out, so the room mates fucking cat could chew through the cord.
Hell no she isn't getting her laptop back. Fuck that shit. All the stuff I lost, because of her?! All that stuff in the storage, of which, only happened to not get paid, because of.......her lies. Yes, her lies.
It's okay.. I'm okay.. I'm here. Fuck this shit. Fuck the bitch.
Wow, Lestat much?
-Khai
Friday, March 20, 2009
Alright..
so I've been sleeping...really weird. Not physically either, I mean.. when I sleep, it's just weird. The dreams I have. Whether I remember them or not, are just way different than what I am used to. Got me thinking though, this last one. I'm looking forward to the future (and no I'm not referring to my future with Kash, etc, though obviously, I am looking forward to that separately).
Basically, I think things are going to be okay, and things will finally start to fall into their respective places, because damn it, I'm sick of this already. Sick of the looks, the confusion, the ignorance. *kicks the ignorant people* <.< Heh. Sorry, they piss me off. But basically, from the dream, I have a new hope things will finally be right. Of course there will be roadblocks, but that's only in the beginning.
So, I'm happy about what the future will bring. However, it will be a long time I am sure before I will even get there. Too many other things going on right now, that need my attn. Ann was supposed to send money.. but alas, she has not. Girls, I'm sorry.. but grr. Ann is your typical girl, and despite I love her,s he drives me insane.
She asks the weirdest of fucking questions to me, and I'm like 'uhhh...huh?' then gets upset I don't understand her. Whatever. She hasn't messaged me in three days. I think she's mad at me. (Most likely is..) but I don't know what to do to change it. There is nothing I can say more on the situation of her moving back in with her mother.
OH! On to her mother, right.. okay. So her mom was in a car accident, a while back. Well a few weeks back. I blogged about it, but not in much detail. Why? Because I didn't have much details, heh. Anyway, it turns out that her mom is partially paralyzed. Which means that she 'can' move, but isn't allowed to, or it will paralyze her.
Her lower vertibre was crushed and on a few of the nerves, making it too dangerous for her to move. So her mom is basically bedridden, and she bitches 24/7 because she's bored. Well naturally a woman who has spent the last 20 years working outside the house 16+hours a day, would be bored.
Whatever, give her a computer and tell her to shut up, ha!. Not really, but yes, along those lines. Ann has/had to move back home to help take care of her mother. Kash and I are figuring this means she will never be moving home here to Georgia with us. I'm sure Kash is more relieved than anything, but me.. I'm not sure how I feel about it.
Ann needs to get away from her mother, not be that much closer. The woman is a crazy bitch, and I can't stand even being in the same house, let alone same room as her. She just gives off those vibes that make you cringe. She is very *cringes and shivers* Bleh. Don't even want to write about her anymore, it's that bad.
So yeah. Aiden did eventually die, like I said he would. He was the next to die, then Nadalia died. Then all the sudden Viktorae's eyes were like.. bulging and shit. I was like, um.. I have no idea what was causing them to die. We bought the medication for them, it just wasn't working. I'm going to just have to blame the filter. It's a 2-10 gal filter, which.. just can't accommodate a full ten gal aquarium and it's fish. We need a new filter.
Totally got sidetracked by someone's blog post. Had to read and respond before I could finish this one. *CoughsMelscoughcoughsneeze* So, we noticed that Jevin was about to die.. and so we took him out, Vik out and flushed them. Hopefully tthey died quickly, rather the long painful process they were endearing with in the aquarium. I didn't want them to suffer any more than they had to.
The minnows are still alive, as well as the goldfish. We put the goldfish back in the tank, with the minnows.. after completely cleaning it, AGAIN and adding new water. The water was sooo clean and pretty.. then 24 hours later, it was cloudy as fuck again. We dont have any more waterconditioner, so I'm not sure what to do really.. I've changed the water twice now, half way each time.
They are still alive, but the water is still cloudy. MUST GET BIGGER FILTER! The bettas are alive, but barely. This is horrible, first our mice were crazy, and not used to being handled, then all the fish we bought, minus the damn gold fish, are dying/have died. And the goldfish are barely hanging in it seems. Rhett has ich, and despite the MANY ich treatments we've given, he isn't getting rid of it.
Lestat, though in the same fucking aquarium, doesn't have ich, but has fin rot, really bad. He had it when we brought him home, but it's just got worse, despite I've been keeping the water clean and making sure it's okay for him to be able to kick the shit. But, it must have been bad enough that it just isn't going away.
Fucking A. I will never buy shit from PetSmart again. This is ridiculous now. Only I will buy mice cages from them, because I like their cages, vs the others ones else where. Anyway, I don't have any pics really to put up, despite I got some of Rasui in Kash's hair the other night. It was hilarious. She was all burried in his hair. Right now, we have Shemeit and Mnoti in Rasui's cage, all chillin, visiting each other.
It's cute how they react when they first see each other, after a few days. They are like, 'omg, who the fuck are you?! Oh, it's just you, cool. What's up?' Ha. I love it.
Right, so I'mma get going now. I'll have those pics for the next blog. Just been playing Harvest Moon with Kash, and messing around on Neopets, despite they are horribly neglected right now. Good thing for NP and the Cockroach motel! Rawrs, baby!
Peace,
Khai
Basically, I think things are going to be okay, and things will finally start to fall into their respective places, because damn it, I'm sick of this already. Sick of the looks, the confusion, the ignorance. *kicks the ignorant people* <.< Heh. Sorry, they piss me off. But basically, from the dream, I have a new hope things will finally be right. Of course there will be roadblocks, but that's only in the beginning.
So, I'm happy about what the future will bring. However, it will be a long time I am sure before I will even get there. Too many other things going on right now, that need my attn. Ann was supposed to send money.. but alas, she has not. Girls, I'm sorry.. but grr. Ann is your typical girl, and despite I love her,s he drives me insane.
She asks the weirdest of fucking questions to me, and I'm like 'uhhh...huh?' then gets upset I don't understand her. Whatever. She hasn't messaged me in three days. I think she's mad at me. (Most likely is..) but I don't know what to do to change it. There is nothing I can say more on the situation of her moving back in with her mother.
OH! On to her mother, right.. okay. So her mom was in a car accident, a while back. Well a few weeks back. I blogged about it, but not in much detail. Why? Because I didn't have much details, heh. Anyway, it turns out that her mom is partially paralyzed. Which means that she 'can' move, but isn't allowed to, or it will paralyze her.
Her lower vertibre was crushed and on a few of the nerves, making it too dangerous for her to move. So her mom is basically bedridden, and she bitches 24/7 because she's bored. Well naturally a woman who has spent the last 20 years working outside the house 16+hours a day, would be bored.
Whatever, give her a computer and tell her to shut up, ha!. Not really, but yes, along those lines. Ann has/had to move back home to help take care of her mother. Kash and I are figuring this means she will never be moving home here to Georgia with us. I'm sure Kash is more relieved than anything, but me.. I'm not sure how I feel about it.
Ann needs to get away from her mother, not be that much closer. The woman is a crazy bitch, and I can't stand even being in the same house, let alone same room as her. She just gives off those vibes that make you cringe. She is very *cringes and shivers* Bleh. Don't even want to write about her anymore, it's that bad.
So yeah. Aiden did eventually die, like I said he would. He was the next to die, then Nadalia died. Then all the sudden Viktorae's eyes were like.. bulging and shit. I was like, um.. I have no idea what was causing them to die. We bought the medication for them, it just wasn't working. I'm going to just have to blame the filter. It's a 2-10 gal filter, which.. just can't accommodate a full ten gal aquarium and it's fish. We need a new filter.
Totally got sidetracked by someone's blog post. Had to read and respond before I could finish this one. *CoughsMelscoughcoughsneeze* So, we noticed that Jevin was about to die.. and so we took him out, Vik out and flushed them. Hopefully tthey died quickly, rather the long painful process they were endearing with in the aquarium. I didn't want them to suffer any more than they had to.
The minnows are still alive, as well as the goldfish. We put the goldfish back in the tank, with the minnows.. after completely cleaning it, AGAIN and adding new water. The water was sooo clean and pretty.. then 24 hours later, it was cloudy as fuck again. We dont have any more waterconditioner, so I'm not sure what to do really.. I've changed the water twice now, half way each time.
They are still alive, but the water is still cloudy. MUST GET BIGGER FILTER! The bettas are alive, but barely. This is horrible, first our mice were crazy, and not used to being handled, then all the fish we bought, minus the damn gold fish, are dying/have died. And the goldfish are barely hanging in it seems. Rhett has ich, and despite the MANY ich treatments we've given, he isn't getting rid of it.
Lestat, though in the same fucking aquarium, doesn't have ich, but has fin rot, really bad. He had it when we brought him home, but it's just got worse, despite I've been keeping the water clean and making sure it's okay for him to be able to kick the shit. But, it must have been bad enough that it just isn't going away.
Fucking A. I will never buy shit from PetSmart again. This is ridiculous now. Only I will buy mice cages from them, because I like their cages, vs the others ones else where. Anyway, I don't have any pics really to put up, despite I got some of Rasui in Kash's hair the other night. It was hilarious. She was all burried in his hair. Right now, we have Shemeit and Mnoti in Rasui's cage, all chillin, visiting each other.
It's cute how they react when they first see each other, after a few days. They are like, 'omg, who the fuck are you?! Oh, it's just you, cool. What's up?' Ha. I love it.
Right, so I'mma get going now. I'll have those pics for the next blog. Just been playing Harvest Moon with Kash, and messing around on Neopets, despite they are horribly neglected right now. Good thing for NP and the Cockroach motel! Rawrs, baby!
Peace,
Khai
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Can't decide..
if it's a good thing or bad. I'm not really holding back much anymore, in terms of what is on my mind. I usually let Lestat speak on those issues.. but I feel the emotions, the thoughts.. hmm. I can't explain it. So just forget that. I don't feel like speaking on it, despite I should. Problem is, most wont understand. Those that will, wont need to comment here on my blog, and those that wont, will comment, and think I'm crazy.
I don't really know why I don't like to, and or feel like talking in instant messenger anymore. Despite I open pidgen, and leave it open usually through out the day. It's kind of like being on the phone. I don't do...phones. It's too... instant. O.o I'm not needing that really in my life right now. I'm needing penpalish type people. People that I'm going to hear from 1-3 times a week (via blogs, emails, snail mail, whatever). And not just hi-bye shit either. We're talking three paragraph minimum conversations, and or confessions (in bloggings case).
Basically, I just need more, not less. And believe it or not, but talking via instant message right now, is actually less (for me). I sent a few letters out, a while ago. They have yet to get back to me. I don't understand Loves (Mel) right now.. as she hasn't written I, or Kash back..yet she was the one.. hm. Then she tried to follow me on Twitter.. I let her follow, but I am never on. I'm just confused I guess when it comes to her. Don't really understand it much. Eh. On to Ann.. so don't really know what's going on there.
She too confuses me. Not in a good way either. At least, not of late. I'm never sure where things are. I do know that I am getting really annoyed with the instant messages (texts in her case) saying repeatedly 'I love you.' 'I miss you.' 'I need you.' etc, many variations of the same three phrases. I can't be sure if its what shes saying, what she's NOT saying, the repetition, or just the instant messages itself, that is bothering me, or a mixture of all, or none. I am just confused when it comes to her. My wife.
Lost..yes, appropriate, isn't it. I'm Lost.
-Khai
I don't really know why I don't like to, and or feel like talking in instant messenger anymore. Despite I open pidgen, and leave it open usually through out the day. It's kind of like being on the phone. I don't do...phones. It's too... instant. O.o I'm not needing that really in my life right now. I'm needing penpalish type people. People that I'm going to hear from 1-3 times a week (via blogs, emails, snail mail, whatever). And not just hi-bye shit either. We're talking three paragraph minimum conversations, and or confessions (in bloggings case).
Basically, I just need more, not less. And believe it or not, but talking via instant message right now, is actually less (for me). I sent a few letters out, a while ago. They have yet to get back to me. I don't understand Loves (Mel) right now.. as she hasn't written I, or Kash back..yet she was the one.. hm. Then she tried to follow me on Twitter.. I let her follow, but I am never on. I'm just confused I guess when it comes to her. Don't really understand it much. Eh. On to Ann.. so don't really know what's going on there.
She too confuses me. Not in a good way either. At least, not of late. I'm never sure where things are. I do know that I am getting really annoyed with the instant messages (texts in her case) saying repeatedly 'I love you.' 'I miss you.' 'I need you.' etc, many variations of the same three phrases. I can't be sure if its what shes saying, what she's NOT saying, the repetition, or just the instant messages itself, that is bothering me, or a mixture of all, or none. I am just confused when it comes to her. My wife.
Lost..yes, appropriate, isn't it. I'm Lost.
-Khai
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