All because you had to be different...

People copy us. Why this is, I don't know, it's just the way it is, and has been. So, when you did what you did, with the profiles, you KNEW that people were going to look, and want to do it that way. You even specifically said for people not to copy. Why? Because you KNEW it was something they would want to try and do themselves.

I'm sorry, but that type of thing, you can't hold copyright too. The actual characters, of course you hold claim to. But the lay out of the profile? Not so much. Not at all, in my opinion. It wasn't fair, from the beginning, that you had a different way to do yours. I told you this, then. Everyone else had to follow a specific route, you, chose to be different.

Yet, we bitched at others, when they did theirs different from the standard. I do not agree with that. But, because you are you, I left it alone. Stating that something was going to happen sooner or later regarding it. And that's what did happen. Had it not been them, it would have been someone else. Can you blame them?

I can't. I'd had wanted to do it that way, but you constantly bitched that people so much as looked at your profiles, let alone, I knew how much you hated the idea someone might want to take what you did and use it for their own characters. I kept my mouth shut. I refused to be like you, and be different, yet force everyone else to be the same.

THAT IS WRONG.

Period.

That is my opinion on it. And I am entitled to it. I do not feel sorry about having called you a baby, for your reaction. Because that's how you were acting. Like a baby, a child. A young boy whose little brother is constantly following him around, wanting to be just like his role model. And you, as the older brother, can't stand it. Hate it.

Well you know what, it goes with the territory. People look up to us. They look up to us for advice, not only in RP or about RP, but in Real. Their real lives. We do something, say something, they listen and take it to heart. They want to do it too, because they like us, and look up to us. And if we do it, or say it, it has to be cool.

You can't see, but you were/are over-reacting about it all. Throwing away our stories, our hard work, over something so stupid as someone wanting to do what you do. Because obviously what you do is fucking amazing, and brilliant. Imitated love, not duplicated. Consider it flattery. There is nothing wrong with it. In fact, it's one of the coolest things, for people to look up to you like that.

But, feel how you want. I can't change it. Just like you can't change how I feel. I love you. Always will. You want it to be over? I wont stop you this time. As much as it'll hurt to see you go, I wont stand in your way. I wont hold you back.

-Khai

Unexpected Changes; Good or Bad?

I don't know. I'm sure I'll find out soon though. Ann has said they will let her off from the 20th through the 28th. Which means she'll have to fly red-eye here on the 19th, and leave the 27th on red-eye. >.< I don't like this, but it's better than nothing.

However, I am not holding my breath, until she actually gets said flights booked, and paid for.

I wanted us all to be together for new years, but maybe this is best. Kash is really upset by the way she's been lately, especially to him, despite she hasn't even noticed. We have though. It will be tough for him those days, but it's what is necessary for me to get to Georgia.

I think though, it's best, because it will give he and I the time we need. He knows what this means. And I look forward to being able to spend the rest of my life with him. My baby. My anamchara. My soul, my heart, my life, my love, my light. My everything. Mera sub kuch, mera zindagi, mera jaan.

-Khai

It's hard to believe...

and even harder to comprehend, when you know that the one person that has given you SO much to be thankful for, gives you so much to hurt and almost wish you had never met them. I just, I can't even express how this understanding alone, tears me up inside. To know that she has given me, so much. Hope. Love. Understanding. Courage. Belief. But now... greif, confusion, anger, and worry.

How can I go on, every word she speaks, I have to question. I miss her, I miss the way she made me smile and laugh. I can't honestly say the last time she made me smile, or laugh. Now, it seems, I'll never be able to get where I'm meant to go. I've wasted, almost an entire year away. Waiting on false promises. Her lies, my dreams. I know she doesn't deliberately do it, and mean to lie.

But her lies, her false truths, her fake promises, they fucking hurt. And I'm near done. I've been near done for so long now. Almost since before she even left. I can't take it anymore. I've decided, if she doesn't buy the tickets in the next few days, her and I will officially be over. I will divorce her, I will have nothing to do with her any longer. I wont do this anymore. I can't. I'm wasting away, on maybes. It's just not worth it.

-Khai