Whimpers and Giggles

Something so comforting about falling asleep, listening to the sound of Kash breathing in my ear. It is really hard us being so far apart, and I am determined to be my Christmas gift this year, for him. Even though that means flying, when I hadn't wanted to fly. However, something tells me this is how it was supposed to be. We would get the chance, to 'meet' and meet alone, with out anyone else in the middle. Which is exactly what we need. Both of us were almost dreading our 'meeting' because of the fact Ann would have been there.

Yes, she is our wife, but at the same time, it is he and I that are soul mates. Some, no, most people would not/do not understand our relationship. Ann and I, met online in 2006, the beginning of, and we were friends for two years, before we decided to meet. After we met, we decided to date. I knew, from the moment we met, I wanted to marry her, and have her in my life, no matter as what, as long as she was there. We talked about everything, including multiple partnered relationships. Both believing that was something we wanted, and needed.

I was still searching for my soul mate. Ann is a soul partner, soul family. I was searching for the one person that completed me. I knew he/she was out there some where. Ann knew he/she was too, as well as her own soul mate, being some where, and she too wanted to find them. I met Kash, online, at the same place I had met Ann, ironically it was the same month, just two years later. Apparently, Kash and Ann had known one another from that site, in Dec. '05 and we hit it off right away, both feeling that we knew each other, some how..some where.

As it is with any relationship, that is from beyond this world, the mortal world. Months later, he and I came to the realization that we were in fact soul mates, and we brought this up to Ann, who just laughed and said 'took you two long enough' and she was happy for us. So, now, the three of us, are in a committed relationship with one another. All married, according to our beliefs. Ann's still searching for her soul mate, and Kash and I are all for that, why wouldn't we be. But since Kash and I have not physically met, our first meeting, we had wanted it to be just us.

With how the things were being planned, it would be Ann and I, meeting Kash for the first time, together. However, things have changed and I am going to try to fly out to Kash myself, for Christmas, alone. Since Ann is having a hard time getting the time off of work. I can't wait, to be able to hold my baby, and feel his warmth against my own. So, getting back to the title of this blog, the past couple of times Kash and I have fallen asleep together, we've left the phones on. And, it is amazing being able to hear his breathing change, just as he's falling under. Brings me to an amazing calm.

I sleep so good, knowing he's there, with in a words distance, if I need him. I hated falling asleep alone. And this way, we aren't alone. Not as much as we were before. And, it just makes me even more excited for the day when we are together in person. I was woke an hour and a half ago, because I heard my baby whimpering in his sleep. Not five minutes later, he was giggling, before going silent again, and all I heard was his steady breathing. God I love him.

Kash Emile Finn; my baby, my love, my light, my life, my all, my everything. <3 Forever and Always.

-Khai