so I've been sleeping...really weird. Not physically either, I mean.. when I sleep, it's just weird. The dreams I have. Whether I remember them or not, are just way different than what I am used to. Got me thinking though, this last one. I'm looking forward to the future (and no I'm not referring to my future with Kash, etc, though obviously, I am looking forward to that separately).
Basically, I think things are going to be okay, and things will finally start to fall into their respective places, because damn it, I'm sick of this already. Sick of the looks, the confusion, the ignorance. *kicks the ignorant people* <.< Heh. Sorry, they piss me off. But basically, from the dream, I have a new hope things will finally be right. Of course there will be roadblocks, but that's only in the beginning.
So, I'm happy about what the future will bring. However, it will be a long time I am sure before I will even get there. Too many other things going on right now, that need my attn. Ann was supposed to send money.. but alas, she has not. Girls, I'm sorry.. but grr. Ann is your typical girl, and despite I love her,s he drives me insane.
She asks the weirdest of fucking questions to me, and I'm like 'uhhh...huh?' then gets upset I don't understand her. Whatever. She hasn't messaged me in three days. I think she's mad at me. (Most likely is..) but I don't know what to do to change it. There is nothing I can say more on the situation of her moving back in with her mother.
OH! On to her mother, right.. okay. So her mom was in a car accident, a while back. Well a few weeks back. I blogged about it, but not in much detail. Why? Because I didn't have much details, heh. Anyway, it turns out that her mom is partially paralyzed. Which means that she 'can' move, but isn't allowed to, or it will paralyze her.
Her lower vertibre was crushed and on a few of the nerves, making it too dangerous for her to move. So her mom is basically bedridden, and she bitches 24/7 because she's bored. Well naturally a woman who has spent the last 20 years working outside the house 16+hours a day, would be bored.
Whatever, give her a computer and tell her to shut up, ha!. Not really, but yes, along those lines. Ann has/had to move back home to help take care of her mother. Kash and I are figuring this means she will never be moving home here to Georgia with us. I'm sure Kash is more relieved than anything, but me.. I'm not sure how I feel about it.
Ann needs to get away from her mother, not be that much closer. The woman is a crazy bitch, and I can't stand even being in the same house, let alone same room as her. She just gives off those vibes that make you cringe. She is very *cringes and shivers* Bleh. Don't even want to write about her anymore, it's that bad.
So yeah. Aiden did eventually die, like I said he would. He was the next to die, then Nadalia died. Then all the sudden Viktorae's eyes were like.. bulging and shit. I was like, um.. I have no idea what was causing them to die. We bought the medication for them, it just wasn't working. I'm going to just have to blame the filter. It's a 2-10 gal filter, which.. just can't accommodate a full ten gal aquarium and it's fish. We need a new filter.
Totally got sidetracked by someone's blog post. Had to read and respond before I could finish this one. *CoughsMelscoughcoughsneeze* So, we noticed that Jevin was about to die.. and so we took him out, Vik out and flushed them. Hopefully tthey died quickly, rather the long painful process they were endearing with in the aquarium. I didn't want them to suffer any more than they had to.
The minnows are still alive, as well as the goldfish. We put the goldfish back in the tank, with the minnows.. after completely cleaning it, AGAIN and adding new water. The water was sooo clean and pretty.. then 24 hours later, it was cloudy as fuck again. We dont have any more waterconditioner, so I'm not sure what to do really.. I've changed the water twice now, half way each time.
They are still alive, but the water is still cloudy. MUST GET BIGGER FILTER! The bettas are alive, but barely. This is horrible, first our mice were crazy, and not used to being handled, then all the fish we bought, minus the damn gold fish, are dying/have died. And the goldfish are barely hanging in it seems. Rhett has ich, and despite the MANY ich treatments we've given, he isn't getting rid of it.
Lestat, though in the same fucking aquarium, doesn't have ich, but has fin rot, really bad. He had it when we brought him home, but it's just got worse, despite I've been keeping the water clean and making sure it's okay for him to be able to kick the shit. But, it must have been bad enough that it just isn't going away.
Fucking A. I will never buy shit from PetSmart again. This is ridiculous now. Only I will buy mice cages from them, because I like their cages, vs the others ones else where. Anyway, I don't have any pics really to put up, despite I got some of Rasui in Kash's hair the other night. It was hilarious. She was all burried in his hair. Right now, we have Shemeit and Mnoti in Rasui's cage, all chillin, visiting each other.
It's cute how they react when they first see each other, after a few days. They are like, 'omg, who the fuck are you?! Oh, it's just you, cool. What's up?' Ha. I love it.
Right, so I'mma get going now. I'll have those pics for the next blog. Just been playing Harvest Moon with Kash, and messing around on Neopets, despite they are horribly neglected right now. Good thing for NP and the Cockroach motel! Rawrs, baby!
Peace,
Khai
Right about now, I don't really have a lot to respond with. And, you probably know why, since I'm upstairs and you're downstairs, but, whatever.
ReplyDeleteI'm sad about the fish, and I don't really know what more we can do for them but let them continue to endure, or, let them go, despite I really like them. But, if Ann isn't sending the money, I don't know how we'll be able to get that other filter in time. So, I guess more water changes, and go from there, or just let them all go now.
Speaking of Ann..
What the fuck did you mean by that I'm probably more relieved? That makes me feel like shit, Khai, seriously. You make it sound like I don't want all of us together. Yes, I have my issues with her, and yes, I would love it to be just us, because I know we're happy together, but, that doesn't mean, we couldn't make it all work until she's ready to move on from us like we know its meant too. Hopefully, I'm taking what you wrote there wrong, if not, we're in need of a good talking.
&; Kash
Ok I want to speak honestly. I love you guys and miss you. I know you guys love each other but bringing a 3rd person into that is only going to fuck up your relationship. It NEVER works. I can promise you that. But if that's what you guys want to do by all means try.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry your fish didn't do well adn died. :(
Also, I am sorry that I haven't been veyr good about reading and responding to both kash and your blogs I will try to be beter.
Love you guys,
Catherine aka Ethansmommy
Well, tbh, Kash is the third person in this relationship. Ann and I were together for almost a year when he came along.
ReplyDeleteIt does work, it can work. It has worked thus far for the three of us. Not to mention, I know a lot of people in monogomous relationships, that are successful.
But thank you for your support, and we know you're busy and stuff, so it's okay...
My condolences on the fish-I wish I had some advice on Ann but as you know I have my own struggles with James with trying to get a 3rd person realistically into our lives-my prayers are with you all and I am here(generally) if you need to talk to someone*hugs*
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry about the fish and about Ann. I don't know the exact number of days but I do know that Wal-Mart has some sort of return policy on fish where they are allowed to be returned/exchanged if they died after so many days of purchase (like I said don't know exact # of days)
ReplyDeleteOn another note I like the animals you adopted and have fed & played with all of them...though I must admit since the monkey is my favorite animal I might have fed & played with him more than the others.