Just can't help it;

A huge part of me, misses my friendship with him. Aside from Nina, no one else has been, and will always be a huge part of my life, regardless they are physically in my life or not. Maybe you don't, or can't understand that. I don't know. But it really bothers me, when I want to, but you basically forbid me to. I don't want to get into it either, because I'll just get more upset. Basically, I miss having a friend, a guy friend, more less, a gay, guy friend, that I could talk to about anything and everything, and he wasn't someone that I was romantically involved with.

Nina, you're great, and I really do love you. But there is a lot of things I can't talk to you about, not just because you are a girl, but because of your strict beliefs in certain things, despite you've never enforced them unto me, of which, I love you more for. It's not often you find someone like you, that is accepting of others, for who ever and whatever they might be. But Kash, I guess it's like Stephy for you, Josh is, to me. Just like he misses me, I miss him. Yeah, he pissed me off, royally, but he's young. Much like Nina is. He's like three years younger than me.

But whatever, I'm done with this, and I'm going to play the game now, to try and take my mind off of things.