" i guess im the fool in thinking that everyone is like me. that everyone knows how to keep their mouths shut, and mind their own business. that when one person says one thing to me, it stays WITH me. unless they specifically say 'hey, tell so and so yada yada' i guess that's my flaw. I'm the stupid one for believing that there was such a thing as trust, and true friendships. i haven't given up on love, because i know Kash and i share a love that i don't ever want to lose, however, i'm probably just being stupid there.. because like everything else, it probably doesn't exist."
I'm going to start this entry with that quote, from an instant message I made. It pretty much speaks for itself. Kash and I got angry with Josh for what he and a couple of other ass holes were saying in a plurk. He plurked the link to it, feel free and read, hell I'll even link it myself.
Plurk
Feel free to read it, form your own opinion. But early on, Kash and I soon felt that these three were basically stating that it's not alright for a woman to have 'her' time just because they 'don't like pussy'. That isn't fair. I could care less whether they like pussy or not, they are gay, it's their fucking prerogative. However, for them to act as if it's the nastiest thing in the world, that a woman have herself some pleasure, and act as if they don't deserve it.. that was not okay. With Kash, nor myself.
My own reasons on why I was hurt by Josh, I don't even want to get into, because it doesn't need to be said, it doesn't need to be blogged. Because it just doesn't matter. Basically, I was hurt. Then, for him to say what he did in his own blog. Wow, okay, that doesn't even make sense. Yeah, I have a few secrets that few know, but it's none of their damn business. It's not like it matters. It's MY secret, it doesn't involve anyone else. So it doesn't need to be known, by anyone else.
I reached out to Molly, because I needed to talk to someone. Little did I know, she was telling JOSH everything I was saying. Then, proceeded to tell me I was wrong in getting upset that she had. As if I was crazy in thinking that what I say in private to someone, God forbid it stay that way. Private. Then she goes to tell me that 'well what does it really matter that I told him, you said you weren't going to talk to him anymore.' Since when is that a defense on why it is OKAY to tell someone what someone else said?
Just makes me see what kind of people really are in the world. I guess I'm the only one that knows how to keep a secret anymore. God forbid I do keep my mouth shut unless other wise said to open it. I'm pretty much done with everyone. I don't believe in friendships anymore. I only believe in myself. I only believe in Love and Light, and what that there in entails. For those that might possible read this, despite I really don't care if anyone does anymore, by believing in myself, I am believing in Kash, as he is my soul mate. Half of myself.
Whatever. Love and Light.
Nothing else.
-Khai
I have my own blogging to do. But, all I'm going to say is this. we have each other, fuck everyone else.
ReplyDelete-Love and Light.
Really funny how you didn't say what you actually said...
ReplyDeletejosh is a fucking fag, thats what happened. i HATE fags, tehre is a big difference between gay people and fags, and josh's display tonight, really made me hate him. if he can say shit like that, he and i cant be friends. joking or not, no. and he was only doing the shit to impress the other fucking fags, so fuck him. im done. i'm close to just deleting my plurk and blocking him from my YIM and moving on. just keeping in contact with a few people via email and such
Now they know the whole story!! My Blog and His blog combined with the plurk...
And what is wrong with hating you for your behavior? What is wrong with hating you, for how you were acting? The behavior you were displaying? Absolutely nothing.
ReplyDeleteKhai's definition of fag: A person who is a dick, a jerk, a fucktard, an ass.
You were acting like all of the above, in that plurk. A complete jerk. I get it, you don't like pussy, big whoop. But why was the joke then that women shouldn't have a 'vibrator' or whatever to get pleasure. The simple fact that they can have pleasure, was sooo disgusting.
Whatever. You can't even talk to my face.
Oh I can too, but you blocked me... So I returned the favor...
ReplyDeleteAlso, Your definition for Fag is false. And you know it is...
YOU HATE THE FACT THAT I NEED REAL FRIENDS!!! PEOPLE IN LIFE I CAN TALK TO, ABOUT REAL LIFE THINGS!!!! I WASN'T FLIRTING OR ASKING TO GET FUCKED! I WASN'T EVEN THINKING IT.
I NEED PEOPLE IN MY LIFE OTHER THAN COMPUTER FRIEND...
Um, Josh, I am and always have been all for you finding 'real' friends. Everyone deserves them. Good luck finding them. I've just learned there is no such thing. But that shouldn't stop you, nope. Have all the fun you want, with your friends.
ReplyDeleteAnd I don't give a fuck what the actual definition is of fag. I get it, it's a stick, that is used for burning, for fires. So the fuck what. People have their own definitions of all sorts of words.
So it is NOT wrong. I didn't say THE definitions of fag is such, I said KHAI's Definitions is. Why are you fighting over stupid little things. And last I checked, you weren't blocked. If that was such, how did I message you earlier, yet you did not reply?
So just stop this and message me already so we can resolve this how ever it is going to be resolved.
Usually, when a person doesn't want something repeated, they say, "Don't tell so and so this, but......" and then they can tell me the whole story, but if that is not said, then there is nothing there to say that sharing is against the rules.
ReplyDeleteI think this is the rule a lot of people have. I am not strange. But I do think this is a dumb thing to end a 10 year friendship over.
Yeah, if you're just 'regular' friends, aquaintences. Not when you're as close as we have been over the years! I shouldn't fucking have to say to you, by the way, don't go tell Josh what I'm saying right now, because I'm really pissed and venting.
ReplyDeleteAnd trust is something to end a friendship over. I trusted you to KNOW the difference, and to not go running your mouth, copying word for fucking word I was saying to you, to him. This isn't the first time. The other times, I let it go..
He's done the same thing, telling me what you said. And I just try my best to ignore it. I let it go in one ear and out the other, because it shouldn't matter what you tell him, only what you tell me.
Everything I've told you, That shes said, Ive told her I said it...
ReplyDeleteKai, you run your mouth off to kash about shit that Id never want repeated too... So you need to step back and realize everyone does it.. get over it.
When you knew that I have done the same thing before (which i knew you knew, and you didnt get mad so i didnt think you cared, and you hadnt said anything to make me think differently)
ReplyDeleteI would think if you didnt want me to talk to him about it like i usually do, you would say something. But once again, I am expected to know how we do things, even though we have never been here before.
And i have been amazed how quickly you have passed judgements on people this week. Oh, they are a bad friend because they are friends with someone who doesnt like me... thats petty too. But because I valued our friendship I was willing to do that for you, even though I didnt agree with it.
And i dont tell two stories. I tell Josh the same things I tell you. I may say more than you want me to, but at least I dont lie.
If you dont want to be my friend anymore that is your decision. But you ended this, not me.
First of all Molly, when that shit was going between you two, it was never anything that was of importance. Just stupid stuff that I would have, or already had told the other. And you don't have to agree with the fact that I don't want people in my life that are friends with people that have gone out of their way to hurt me, or someone I care for. Including Josh.
ReplyDeleteAnd to Josh, I do -not- go out and tell Kash anything you say to me. I've told you that before, and he's even told you that. But you don't have to believe us. That's not our fault. But maybe since you don't believe me, I should just go and get all our conversations in archives, and copy them in an email and send them to Kash. Maybe that'll make you feel better.
I think that I am glad that I was asleep last night, when all this shit went down. I love all you guys and I don't know what the fuck happened. BUT I AM GOING TO BE BRUTAL HONEST HERE... PLEASE DO NOT GET MAD AT ME... But from everything I have read and from what I understand, I think that everyone (other than Molly) is being a completely immature about this.
ReplyDeleteLook you have been friends for a long time. I know that Molly told something that you didn't want told BUT you didn't tell her not too. SO, you really have no reason to be upset with her.
And as for Josh, I read the plurk and I am offended by the things you said and I feel that you are wrong and rude. Not to mention, you have shown a HUGE amount of immaturity and lack of care and compassion for other people, especially women. Just because you don't like vagina DOES NOT GIVE YOU A GODDAMN RIGHT TO TALK SHIT AND BE RUDE ABOUT WOMEN'S "PERSONAL TIME."
Kash and Khai, do not delete your plurk over this. You will be letting them win. Don't give them that privilege.
wow so why are you continuing to fight? I don't know anything about the situation but you and Josh should part ways for the time being. Sorry about what happened and feel better hun
ReplyDeletejax my love.. josh said us women don't deserve to have "us" time.. as in my christmas present isn't a worthwhile cause... henceforth denoting lesbian sex. if women shouldn't be aloud to masturbate, as in have sex with out a penis, he doesn't think what you do is right, and therefore must find you utterly disgusting, and myself. what he did was deplorable. though everyone is entitled to ones opinion, he should have expected some resistance from the people who have vaginas. but whatever.. never feed the gremlins right? sorry Khai.. better to know now.. because hindsight is always 20/20
ReplyDeleteI agree with kash,hun.
ReplyDeleteIf they dont want to be your friend oh well its their lost.
That happen to me before so I understand where you are coming from and how betrayed and hurted you felt.