Need

Craving social advances, I find myself unable to find a medium, with in myself, to look externally for nourishment. I find myself needing to blog, but unable to, for many a reasons. One of them being I, like I said, can't find a medium, and completely opening myself up through blogger, is not something I find I can do much anymore. Aside from every day normal things, and happenings.

Like Kash, I just can't find a place where I feel, free. Aside from with him, in the solitude of our home. Being me, though, I need more of a social life. Not social like I want to go out and party, but I need something. Others. I miss having at minimum, ten different people I could talk to at any given moment of the day. Now, I stay signed out of messengers, finding myself, not feeling as if I can open up to anyone, who are even on my messenger lists.

Kash and I even deleted our messenger programs, only signing on to them, occasionally through email, or meebo. We deleted our plurks, I rarely use twitter, except to reply to a few people, on the rare occasion I sign in on there. Like now, I've been staring at this thing for 10 minutes, but not able to get a damn thing out, that I want to say. Its like I'm stuck, but where, I'm not sure.

Kash, I love you. Very much. Muah. Anamchara. <3

-Khai

Snow! Good riddance? And Nimmo.

For the first time in my life, I stood outside.. and experienced snow, with all five senses. It was ah-mazing. I had so much fun, I can't exclaim. 25 years old, and I only just now experienced snow first hand. Well, falling snow. I've been in snow, but after it has fell. I have found a new passion. Snow flakes! I was just in awe, seriously. How intricate they all are, and uniquely different! I know, I know, I've grown up hearing there are no two alike. But I had never experienced it myself!

So I was quite amazed. In love, I am with the falling snow. However, I don't know how well I would do with snow, that fell and stayed! I am freezing my ass off as is, and it's on average 50 degrees, high. Makes me wish it would snow like this for a week though, or more. It's truly beautiful how it falls from the sky, like a blanket.. very different from the rain I love. I'm almost wondering which ultimately I'd love more. Good thing it wont snow like this more often, or I'd possibly choose the snow. (Since it's rarer.)

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Kash and I deleted our plurks last night; early this morning. We just never really felt like plurking. Too many other things we were doing. We had been really sick for a while, and plurked once a day, if that. No one really seemed to miss us. Not that it mattered, but we just got to thinking, why are we even on there anymore. We plurk, to keep people updated. But, those people, aren't really minded by what was going on with us.

Those that were, were messaging us, and or reading our blogs regularly. Aside from that, there was just too much drama -still- on plurk that we just didn't need/want to deal with. We have lots to do and sitting at the computer, isn't helping us do them, is it? Nope. Honestly, it's kind of weird..not plurking. I still find myself going 'that's plurk worthy there' but...there is no plurk. Lol. Oh well, its for the best, I'm sure.

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Nimmo, what is that you might ask. Well, in this exact case, it is a tree frog. But, Nimmo, is actually a Neopet, that resembles a frog. Don't confuse those with Quiggles now, as those are a little more warty than Nimmos. :P Basically, Nimmo is like a frog, and Quiggles are like Toads. But, back to this little Nimmo. He's small, and dark green and brown, cute, and jumpy. He likes Kash a lot.



I noticed him on the back porch (that is about 15feet off the ground) just as it was starting to snow. Poor little guy was so cold! He could hardly hop, but he was trying. It was as if he was coming to us for help to get out of the at the time, near freezing temperatures. I brought him in, and got some semi-warm/cold water in a bucket, just enough for him to sit in, to warm his core temp.



It worked, because soon after he was alive and wanting to go all over the place. He mostly kept trying to jump onto Kash and in his hair. We named him Nimmo, after the Neopet, because he looks like a Nimmo. (Despite it's REALLY the other way around :P) We set up our fish tank to accomodate him. Since it's only firebolt in there (placo) and he doesn't need lots of water. The filter is one that you can just sit on the bottom of the tank and it works fine.

Its keeping the water moving to give Firebolt air, and there's lots of places for Nimmo to chillax and keep warm, and above the water. We plan on keeping him, at least until the weather warms up, if not indefinitely. The mice are doing well, I will post a pic of them or two at the end of this here blog. I hope everyone that reads this has a good day above all else, and stays in good health. Much love to you all, and I must now bid you adiu.

-Khai