if it's a good thing or bad. I'm not really holding back much anymore, in terms of what is on my mind. I usually let Lestat speak on those issues.. but I feel the emotions, the thoughts.. hmm. I can't explain it. So just forget that. I don't feel like speaking on it, despite I should. Problem is, most wont understand. Those that will, wont need to comment here on my blog, and those that wont, will comment, and think I'm crazy.
I don't really know why I don't like to, and or feel like talking in instant messenger anymore. Despite I open pidgen, and leave it open usually through out the day. It's kind of like being on the phone. I don't do...phones. It's too... instant. O.o I'm not needing that really in my life right now. I'm needing penpalish type people. People that I'm going to hear from 1-3 times a week (via blogs, emails, snail mail, whatever). And not just hi-bye shit either. We're talking three paragraph minimum conversations, and or confessions (in bloggings case).
Basically, I just need more, not less. And believe it or not, but talking via instant message right now, is actually less (for me). I sent a few letters out, a while ago. They have yet to get back to me. I don't understand Loves (Mel) right now.. as she hasn't written I, or Kash back..yet she was the one.. hm. Then she tried to follow me on Twitter.. I let her follow, but I am never on. I'm just confused I guess when it comes to her. Don't really understand it much. Eh. On to Ann.. so don't really know what's going on there.
She too confuses me. Not in a good way either. At least, not of late. I'm never sure where things are. I do know that I am getting really annoyed with the instant messages (texts in her case) saying repeatedly 'I love you.' 'I miss you.' 'I need you.' etc, many variations of the same three phrases. I can't be sure if its what shes saying, what she's NOT saying, the repetition, or just the instant messages itself, that is bothering me, or a mixture of all, or none. I am just confused when it comes to her. My wife.
Lost..yes, appropriate, isn't it. I'm Lost.
-Khai
Believe me, I get it. That's all I'm going to say because everything else I can say in person. Or, you already know.
ReplyDelete&; Kash
I'm not sure at all what to say, but I really do want to say something...at least I think I do...pfft I've gone and confused myself again with my own thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI will say this though...being crazy can be kind of fun at times if you think about it.
~Nina
*hugs tightly* I have no words that will help-and I could say I would love to be your penpal and while that is true...I also know I totally SUCK at responding to letters and such and you need people that will do just that. You know where to find me if you want to talk and I am going to try to be better at blogging so we can catch up that way
ReplyDeleteThings will work out. Twitter, by the way, is frickin' maddening.
ReplyDelete*sigh* i just posted a nice responce here.
ReplyDeletebut this website is being stupid and doesnt want to load the page after I hit the post button. rawr.
Moral of the story is: you can email me if you need/want to. I'll be that person if you'd like. or one of them anyways. heh. I'd like to do something like that, really.