Just can't help it;

A huge part of me, misses my friendship with him. Aside from Nina, no one else has been, and will always be a huge part of my life, regardless they are physically in my life or not. Maybe you don't, or can't understand that. I don't know. But it really bothers me, when I want to, but you basically forbid me to. I don't want to get into it either, because I'll just get more upset. Basically, I miss having a friend, a guy friend, more less, a gay, guy friend, that I could talk to about anything and everything, and he wasn't someone that I was romantically involved with.

Nina, you're great, and I really do love you. But there is a lot of things I can't talk to you about, not just because you are a girl, but because of your strict beliefs in certain things, despite you've never enforced them unto me, of which, I love you more for. It's not often you find someone like you, that is accepting of others, for who ever and whatever they might be. But Kash, I guess it's like Stephy for you, Josh is, to me. Just like he misses me, I miss him. Yeah, he pissed me off, royally, but he's young. Much like Nina is. He's like three years younger than me.

But whatever, I'm done with this, and I'm going to play the game now, to try and take my mind off of things.

Done.

Okay, so I'm a few hours ahead of schedule, but what difference is it going to make. Seriously? None. Only one person who asked to be allowed, that stated to me their email address, I have not added. Why? Well, because I'm not so sure I can trust said person enough to NOT go blabbing to another certain someone what I write. Since, that other certain someone is one of the big reasons why I finally made the decision to go private.

I don't think many people realize, but I have a tracker on my blog, and it is literally telling me who is coming to my page, when and how. In other words, if you came to my blog, using blogger's dashboard, it tells me. If you came to my blog using RSS feeds, it tells me. If you came to my blog, using a link, from some where else, anywhere, it tells me. It also tells me who you are, and where you are from, and what time, you came to my blog.

I was real tired of seeing this person coming to my blog, EVERY time I blogged. I'm not okay with that. I made the decision months ago, to end my friendship with them, and for a reason. I do NOT want them to see what I am up to, how I am doing, and where I am going, with my life. Along with a couple other people that are visiting my blog still, that I'm not okay with. Not to mention the random drop ins. I used to not mind it so much, but lately, I'm wanting my life to remain private.

As is my prerogative.

-Khai

P.S. I also didn't add someone else, due to the fact they never gave me their email address. Oh well, they know how to contact me if they want to.