...but it just never works out. I try to seperate my life from certain some ones, because of their so called bogus friendship ethics, however, they always find their way back into my life. Take twitter, for instance. I have a twitter. I have very little people on it, for a reason. Yet, I get an email, on my OLD email's asking for me to make a twitter, to keep in touch with said friend.
And, of course, what do I do. I start following their twitter. Instead of just deleting the messages and moving on, I followed their twitter. Why can't I just let enough alone? Yeah I feel bad about just up and disappearing from their life, however, it ceases to amaze me, at how little remorse they feel, for their loyalty, to me, who was a so-called best friend. (Until all the shit happened with my ex, and they decided they wanted to stay friends with both, yet keep the friendship with me, a secret, from her, so she wont get pissed off.)
What the fuck kind of shit is that? I mean, really? You call that being a friend? How the hell can you be friends with someone, yet keep it on the down low, and hide it from the world. That is not a friendship. That's cowardice. And if it's one thing I hate most, it's that. Cowards. They fit right there alongside liars and cheats in my book. Hence, I just up and stopped talking to them, took them off my myspaces, facebook, everything.
I don't need them. If they want to hide our friendship, than there is NO friendship to hide. The end. So why the fuck?! did I just follow them on twitter. Basically inviting them back into my life? Why? Because in her case, I at one point considered her my best friend, my twin sister. We were that close. I miss the friendship we had, but I refuse to go back, since she is still, friends with my ex. After all my ex did to me, she's friends with my ex. FUCK ALL OF THEM.
I'm done.
Sorry, needed to vent.
Apparently, I did. Despite, I could go on and say a whole shit load more.
-Khai
Baby, look at me.
ReplyDeleteI love you.
We've both got our people in our lives sort of like that. You did it because you want people to change, to feel something that they could feel but they won't. A huge part of me is wanting to tell you to up and delete said person, but, a part of you won't. Despite a huge part of you probably already has the page open ready and willing to do it for you.
Don't go back there, I beg you. Delete her. You do not need that drama in your life. If she wants to talk to you, she has that old email address to contact you. Thats the end of it. That's where it should be ending at.
Again, look at me. You know you want too. I'm sitting right across from you.
You're my world. My everything. My all. My anamchara.
Kash
Well, I unfollowed her, and even deleted my facebook all together. As best as I could. It doesn't allow deletion? I don't know. It is de-activated. I wont delete my myspace, but she has already been deleted, along with a few other people just like her. She hasn't tried messaging me, etc. Despite she was on my myspace friends list for a long time, til recently, when I went on the deleting spree.
ReplyDeleteShe might be able to see my twitter now, though, since I did follow, despite I unfollowed. However, I'm marked as private, so she can't see anything anyway.
I just don't understand how she, or any of them could have been, or are being the way they are. RP is I guess, more important to them, then the real thing. Whatever. Now you see why I don't want to get back into RP?
Yes, I can see why you don't want to get into rp, babe. Its understandable, but, you also got to understand that rping isn't the problem. They use it for something its not meant to be used like. You and I don't use it for that same reason. But, if I didn't understand, I would be pushing to rp all the time. Have I? No. I'm glad you did what you did though, love. You deserve so much better when it comes to them. One day they'll realize.
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