each breath feels like a knife. Slicing through me. I bleed for you to see, but you don't. You wont. How can you see, when you've cut your eyes out. I scream for you to hear, but you wont. You don't. How can you hear when you're blaring music in your ears so loud. Every breath, brings me that much closer to death, and you are oblivious, fucking ridiculous.
Then you have the audacity to ask me what's wrong. Why I've been quiet? Stop fucking talking for two seconds and you might notice someone else is speaking. But I wont speak anymore. I've spoke my mouth dry, throat raw. Each breathe pains me to take. So easy, me to end it. So fucking easy. Beat you to the punch. Then for once, I wouldn't have to feel a burden.
You know what? You put me in this position. All because you couldn't stand up to them. Wouldn't speak when it mattered most. I don't know what to think anymore. What to feel, do, say. To you. I'm lost. So far fucking gone, I don't know how to get back. I don't even know if I want to go back. Knowing I have so much happiness..waiting for me. But I can't reach out and touch it, it's haunting me.
Killing me softly.
-Khai
All I can really say to you is that I love you and please hold on. I know its hard. We're both in the same boat. Just please. We're so close, and yes I know its yet so far away. I swore to you, and I still swear, if she doesn't get you here, I will do everything in my nature to get you here. Just. hold. on.
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