..think any birth will come of this? So, tons has happened since I was last able to post. And despite I've some what had the net this past two or so weeks, it's been very unreliable, and at times, impossible to leach on to. Even then, I've hardly felt like blogging. It seems so much has changed, yet I'm still the same? Maybe, who knows. I'm sure I've changed to some degree, I mean, every day is a lesson, one in which we all grow and learn from.
One thing that has not changed, and yet, it has, is my love for Kash. He is my world. He is my rock, when I need something solid, my glue, when I need something permanent, my elastic, when I need something flexible. I can tell him anything, with out worrying about getting hurt, or being hurt, or even misunderstood. I love him so much, and I only wish he knew exactly how much. But, I'm sure he loves me just as much, and there for, I'm sure he knows.
Mama died, or rather, Isis, our hamster. I honestly can't remember if I ever blogged about that. I really can't remember if we had the net at the time, or not. That was hard on Rhett, and Kash. Li and Ase, of course were upset about it too. I was as well, but not as much as them. Then, Mnoti finally died. We knew that was coming, after all, she kept having problems with her eyes, and her weight. Finally though, we noticed labored breathing, and we seperated her from the other girls.
With in a week, she had died. Then just yesterday, Rasui died. That hit me hard. We noticed about a week ago, she started having labored breathing, and it was really sudden. Don't know what happened to her. But, she finally gave up yesterday evening. I held her as she took her last breaths. I whispered good bye to her as I felt her slipping away. Hopefully they are all in a much better place then here, in this world. Because all I see in the future, in terms of mankind as a whole, is a lot of crap.
I'm tired of the fighting, between everyone. It really needs to stop. But, how to make it stop? Well, I don't think it's even possible by a mere mortal such as myself.
Nailah, has officially started puberty, she's going through her second wave of heat spells. Real annoying, because we can't get much sleep as a result. Blah, oh well. We have a rat.. don't know if I ever had the opportunity of saying that. We took Cinaed and Ciaron back to the store, because we were tired of them fighting, and traded them in for Maiko. She's pretty good, and much more social than the mice. She was iffy at first, but now she's spoiled rotten.
Over all, I may be jobless, I may not have much to my name, but I do have Kash, and I do have my pets. I couldn't really ASK for more, despite I might want it. I love my life, because I have so much love in it. So much so, that it pushes past that hate that those assholes in the next room love to try and spread. After all, misery loves company. Well, this company ain't up for sell.
One thing that has not changed, and yet, it has, is my love for Kash. He is my world. He is my rock, when I need something solid, my glue, when I need something permanent, my elastic, when I need something flexible. I can tell him anything, with out worrying about getting hurt, or being hurt, or even misunderstood. I love him so much, and I only wish he knew exactly how much. But, I'm sure he loves me just as much, and there for, I'm sure he knows.
Mama died, or rather, Isis, our hamster. I honestly can't remember if I ever blogged about that. I really can't remember if we had the net at the time, or not. That was hard on Rhett, and Kash. Li and Ase, of course were upset about it too. I was as well, but not as much as them. Then, Mnoti finally died. We knew that was coming, after all, she kept having problems with her eyes, and her weight. Finally though, we noticed labored breathing, and we seperated her from the other girls.
With in a week, she had died. Then just yesterday, Rasui died. That hit me hard. We noticed about a week ago, she started having labored breathing, and it was really sudden. Don't know what happened to her. But, she finally gave up yesterday evening. I held her as she took her last breaths. I whispered good bye to her as I felt her slipping away. Hopefully they are all in a much better place then here, in this world. Because all I see in the future, in terms of mankind as a whole, is a lot of crap.
I'm tired of the fighting, between everyone. It really needs to stop. But, how to make it stop? Well, I don't think it's even possible by a mere mortal such as myself.
Nailah, has officially started puberty, she's going through her second wave of heat spells. Real annoying, because we can't get much sleep as a result. Blah, oh well. We have a rat.. don't know if I ever had the opportunity of saying that. We took Cinaed and Ciaron back to the store, because we were tired of them fighting, and traded them in for Maiko. She's pretty good, and much more social than the mice. She was iffy at first, but now she's spoiled rotten.
Over all, I may be jobless, I may not have much to my name, but I do have Kash, and I do have my pets. I couldn't really ASK for more, despite I might want it. I love my life, because I have so much love in it. So much so, that it pushes past that hate that those assholes in the next room love to try and spread. After all, misery loves company. Well, this company ain't up for sell.
Nailah Sarayi
Maiko Taki
Maiko Taki
When I read this, especially with the kids at the couch, it took a lot out of me not to cry while reading this. I had to go upstairs to give you a hug because I was that emotional from what you said. I love you so much. You are my world, and I'm so grateful for you. I'm so sorry that things are the way they are here because of those assholes but I try practically on a daily bases to make it as best as it can be. I just hope that things will ease up for us soon. At least for you. Just look outside. :) So beautiful. Almost as beautiful and wonderful as you are. Even if Nailah is a bitch, and Maiko is spoiled rotten, and Rasui is gone. :/ We're perfect for one another. You know this though.
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