I've come to realize just how sad it is, and makes me, when I look back at past friends. At how and why they were lost. How important they were for those years, and over stupid things really, they are now gone.
Forever into the abyss that is known as the past.
Depressing, really when you think about it. Someone who was at one point in time, THE most important thing in the world. At least, in your eyes. Or I should say mine. My life. Not a day goes by, I don't think of you.
Do you think of me too? In a way, I hope so. In another, I pray you don't. Why? Because I would never ever wish upon you this sadness that comes with realizing how horrible things came to an end.
All because you felt you just didn't know me anymore. Didn't understand. Couldn't. But did you try?
No.
Time is never ending, despite it ends for each and every one of us individually. So of course, things and people are changing. Deep down, I'm still the same person. The one you used to confide in above all else.
Share your fears, hopes and dreams, late at night when you just couldn't fall asleep, or vice versa. We shared a lot. And now, it's gone. For what?
You tell me. Oh wait, that's right.. you can't tell me. I wonder if we'll ever meet again. I hope so. For being such an important part of my past, I only pray, you'd at least be a small if not larger part of my future.
-Khai
Sitting next to you while you were looking at all those people on myspace, I could tell that your mind was running off somewhere and apparently I was right with the blog.
ReplyDeleteIt is weird seeing the people you once knew and haven't talk to in forever for different reasons. You know how I was reacting to certain people, so I get it for the most part despite I don't know completely whats running through your head at this very second. But, talk to me, if you need too.
Speaking of which, I should probably talk to you about my dream eventually.
Love you baby.
&; Kash
I understand the feeling and I try to look at it as those that have moved out of my life for whatever reason have learned what they needed from me and I from them-if the lessons are not done they will reappear at the appropriate time-but sometimes people need to move out of our lives to make room for new ones that are needed at a particular moment*hugs*
ReplyDeleteaww, im sorry, *hugs* i know how it feels, to have cared about a friend, lost them, then years later think about them out of the blue. wonder if they are thinking about you, sad yet humbled to have known them at all
ReplyDeletedon't feel sad, we are here for you
It is really awkward to run through all of that and just think back about the old times and wonder what happened. I do that almost everyday... wondering where my "best friends" went, and why we dont keep in touch anymore.
ReplyDeleteThe sad truth is that everyone changes. Everyone has their own things going on and apparently its too much to stop and talk and too much to spend time with someone you supposively care so much about. Its a rough world out there that we live in.
My dad always told me we'd only have 5 close friends in our lives, and nothing more than that. Maybe even less. But, I think so long as you have the important people by your side that's all that you need at this point.