not enough brain power to sort through them.
So, Ann called and said she's being sued.. O.O Great, even more of a reason for her to NOT own up to her half of the deal. Her part of the bargain. I just don't know anymore. It's like, what will go wrong, DOES fucking go wrong with her. It has been one thing after another. Quite disgusting really, and annoying, and it's really got me pissed. I can't even talk to her anymore, because I'm just so far fucking gone. However that means.
I don't even think I can explain it. I've tried, it doesn't work. Nothing works lately. All I know is that I want to get my ass to Georgia so I can start living my life, and doing what I need to do to make it. I can't do it here, on the prospect of leaving in a month, 3 weeks, 2 weeks, who knows. I absolutely hate that Ann, has left me here with all these responsibilities, none of which I asked for. None of which I agreed to take on.
All of which, were hers to begin with. She fucking leaves, and I'm stuck with them. She was supposed to be doing her part from there, by sending me the cash to take care of things here. But has she? Fuck no. Once she's sent money. And that wasn't even enough! I have all her fucking shit here, that I have to find something to do with, I don't know what either. Especially with out her sending me money.
It's not like I can pay someone to store it. Unfortunately, I'll probably have to throw most of it away. Sucks if I throw something important, but damn it, I'm not even supposed to be here right now. I'm supposed to have been in MI with her looong time ago. Of course, she never followed through with that either, and left me stranded here to some how pay for an apt all my own on what little pay I got from working, since the economy sucks and I was lucky to get 10 hours a week.
That apt of course was lost, had to move. Along with some how finding a place that would take myself, along with her and my animals. That lasted all of 4/5 weeks, and it had to end because Ann still wasn't pulling her half of the bargain, and sending money to cover HER HALF of everything. It wasn't even much. All she needed to send was 150 a month.. and it would have been okay. But nope. She kept giving excuse after excuse.
And I'm sorry, if they are 'legit' to her, but um, no. They is just bullshit excuses. It's not my fault she can't stand up to mommy and daddy dearest, who are fucking psycho's if I ever did see some. Crazy ass people, most of her family is clinically deemed psycho in some way shape or form. Problem is, they refuse to take their medicine, and or just plain get treated. I blame it all on her, and with good reason.
We came to AZ with the notion that she would start working immediately through the same company in which she worked for in CA. They were transferring her, and better yet, they were giving her two dollars more an hour here in AZ! But noo, she kept making excuses once we were here as to why she couldn't work that day. And then the next day.. with the economy like it is, especially in AZ, jobs are hard to find..
I was searching, but it took me literally three months to find a job. Took the first one that came along, unfortunately, I wasn't getting more than 10 hours a week, because they just really didn't need the help. The guy actually gave me those hours as a favor, because he knew I needed SOMETHING since Ann still wasn't working. By then, I think her job with the security company had been thrown to hell.
I'm sure they gave up on her. She just never went back after she went for a re-orientation to show her the little differences in how things were ran here, vs in California. So, yeah.. she did nothing but sit and lay on her lazy fucking ass while I was out searching for another job, or a second job. She barely took care of any of the pets, all of which but one, was hers. I had to cook for them, I had to clean up after them. I had to bathe them..
She did fucking nothing, yet they were all hers. No one even asked me if I wanted them. Nope. Came home to find a different animal with in 'our' care like wtf. Then when she took off to go to MI to work for her moms company.. she left with the agreement she'd be sending money back to help pay her half of things until she could bring us up there. Which was planned to be with in two months.
PSH. Riight, think that happened? We were starving, the pets and I. My grandma had to go grocery shopping on occassion for us, she refused to get pet food though. So I wound up giving the pets my food, and starving myself. Needless to say, I lost about 30 lbs in two months. 30 lbs at that time that I couldn't afford to lose as it was. Luckily, I had power, no gas, and water was free in those apts.. so I could nuke my food..
Couldn't cook though once the gas was shut off. :/ Which really sucked. Kash was there.. as much as he could be, through it all. He would listen to me freaking out over what to do. Not knowing what to do.. what was going on. Not knowing whether or not if I left to go get some cat/dog food from the store, I'd be coming back to literally nothing. Since by then, I hadn't paid rent in two months.. Kinda hard to pay 650 in rent, when I'm making 90 a month, and that all is going to power and pet food.
*Sighs* Whatever, enough of that bullshit. I'm here now, at my gmas.. the cats are in foster, of which I'm paying for. Or rather, Kash paid for this last time. But I still have to pay again in two weeks, and Ann supposedly sent money, but ahahahaa like the last 10 times she 'sent it' it just magically disappears in the mail system. WTF ever, because she uses FEDEX! She is such a fucking liar, it's not even funny.
I hate to say it, but I really think I hate her. I know for a fact I hate the shit she's doing, done, and will do for the following months to come. I don't know if I want to continue to be in this relationship with her. This marriage. How can we continue this marriage, when all these ill feelings and thoughts are about and in the air? Can one live happily in a marriage like that? I don't think so, but who knows, maybe I'm wrong.
-Khai
Like I told you last night about the situation with her. I know you're fed up because of how you are now reacting to it, and all you said was "i think its the situation and not her" but this proves I was right with it being her now not the situation, because babe, the situation is being caused by her.
ReplyDeleteEither way, i support you in whatever you feel that you need to do, and I will continue to do what I feel that I can from here until we're both in one anothers arms. Talk to Kris. I'll cash my bond, and see how much I have from there. And, we'll go from there. Maybe Kris can help a little more. Josh said he would help. Surely with the three of us, we can get you and everything situated without her help. If you have to throw her shit away, then so be it. It meant nothing to her in the first place if she hasn't kept her end of the deal by now. Right? Right.
I'll get you out here so we can start our life finally. I love you that much.
I think I might have a garage sale.. There was A LOT of books, maybe I can sell those and get cash from them, and sell anything and everything else for money too to help. I don't know. I feel bad, because I'm not that type of person, ya know?
ReplyDeleteBut damn, I need fucking money, and she's neglected to send ANYTHING, yet I'm here struggling trying to look after and take care of her shit. >.<
Have a garage sale. That is a wonderful idea. she said so herself to forget the books. mark them 1-5 dollars a piece o.O i mean seriously anything is better than nothing. Sell EVERYTHING but the wicca stuff, and sell all the wicca books because they are worthless. just the supplies. WE can use those. Screw her.
ReplyDeleteI know you'll feel bad but babe, you need the money to help you get out here. The cats need help. Dona needs help. YOU need help. Okay? My 170 and whatever my bond is, is not going to be enough. that money you already have is not going to be enough and whatever josh could do won't be enough but if Kris can help with the ticket. and you do that, and then we all three help in our own ways, we can get it.
hell, i could have a garage sale.. but there arent alot of people that do that around here.. and we have some weird ass law in our neighborhood that we have to TALK to the entire neighborhood or something first, since you have to have more than one person/family doing them at one time. i don't know. it stupid.
That is kinda stupid.. that you have to have everyone do it. Boo. Ann asked me personally to send her the wicca books, let her have them. I don't care. She also wants me to send the tarot stuff, which again, I don't really care about. I doubt I'll even keep the ones she gave me.
ReplyDeleteI don't really feel a connection with any but the one deck, and she wants that deck so whatever. But yeah, I'll sell most everything and especially that stupid Dawsons creek first season DVD's or whatever that she took from her sisters friend after her sister stole my router and cd's.
Because of Ann, I've lost so much of my things.. things that I cried over when they were gone. I'm talking things that I worked hard to get, and or I had them from childhood. She's been nothing but bad luck for me. I can't have that in my life. She really needs to own up to the shit she's done, and get rid of that fucking demon.
He's the cause of it, no doubt, but she's summoned him, so whatever. Fucking bullshit. But yeah. Okay, I'm just rambling now.
I understand completely. I have the entire eight years of charmed on DVD. Maybe I could sell that. thats over $300 right there, but I saved up for all of those. I could sell all my HP stuff too. That's significant amount of money too. Its all in good condition. The books have never even been read. I read the books before I got this set. The book set is over $130 in itself. Thats how much I'm willing to help. And, babe, then screw the wicca stuff. We have a pagan shop near here if they haven't closed down. we'll buy our own card and stuff when the time is right.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry, but I'm fed up with Ann too. I have been for a while. I think you should do this. Sell everything besides the wicca stuff then, and we'll get her that stuff and the rest she can kiss goodbye. Talk to your grandma about that then, set it up for a week long or something. Maybe Kris can help bring the stuff over there since your grandma is the way she is. But, we'll talk about this in IM heh.
Oy. I dont think you should put up with much more of her crap. Especially if you're not happy, I'd prob reconsider everything. And for someone that claims to care about you, she's not really doing a good job and making sure you're okay and HER pets are okay as well. I'd be wondering what she's really doing with all that money that she's obviously NOT sending to you. even though it'd be a really bitch move to make, maybe you should stop paying to keep her animals in a foster place er something. or just make something up, to see if she'll send you out more money if some of HER things are being put in jeapordy that she really loves. yah know? I dont know. The shitty part is that its hard everywhere right now, to find a decent job and live comfortably. =[ ive been looking for a job for quite some time now and have had no luck myself.so, i know how hard it is. but considering the amount of money she seems to be racking in, i dont see why she'd have a prob. to help support you and take care of the things that are hers! this is a glimpse of the REAL world, and maybe she needs a better look at it.
ReplyDeletemaybe you could try putting some stuff up on ebay. or finding a pawn shop er something to take in some of your things. idk. sadly, most places dont even give you half of what you paid for the item. but, i suppose right now any money would be better than none at all. hang in there though. im sure things will work out for you eventually. i know its really tough though. =[